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Ago
04:56
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We’ve only got so much time, we’ve only got so much time left,
it’s now, it’s the present, but it’s just unpleasant to have guessed,
that sometimes the right choice is not in your own voice, it’s true,
the wants of another will not always matter to you
so here’s your curtain call,
don’t give me direction, but please don’t let me fall,
the timing will never be right
if it all stays the same
I’m through with this waiting around,
the answer won’t come if I’m staring at the ground,
it doesn’t matter to you,
as long as I make the choice that will put me through,
the trouble you’re facing, the clock that I’m racing,
there’s no use in wasting both our time,
but summer is coming, and I will be running,
and I’ll be fine
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2. |
Dive In
03:51
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Waiting on a tidal wave so that I can run away
Shy and self-absorbed I sit here, hoping you might come to stay
Are you just a visitor? Do you want to live alone
Am I just a vacation? Honey, let's go home
You say I never change, I'm a picture in a frame
Fire eyes still burn my insides away to this day
I want you, so desperately I do
I haunt you, these desperate things I do
Casting out another line so that ours will be entwined
Armed and ready I wait for your return, so that we can lead my perfect life
Are you gonna leave again? I can fix it all in time
There are no reparations for grasping hold of what is mine
You say I never change, I'm a picture in a frame
Fire eyes still burn my insides away to this day
My thoughts spiral through the halls of your house,
cause I’m screaming out loud but there’s no one left around
I hear talking heads, scheming beneath your bed,
I heard what they said, breathe my air instead,
I see infrared, heat waves come from your bed,
so until you’re dead, breathe my air instead
Riding out this tidal wave,
I could never run away
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3. |
Advanced Darkness
03:47
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I’m sure someone expected something from me, but that was so long ago,
now everything has come to a stop or at least it moves incredibly slow,
there’s nothing you can say to convince me,
and there’s no hope for making a change
it’s something that you don’t wanna find out,
it’s something that you don’t wanna learn,
I’m causing the lives of those around me to crash and burn,
I was never that good at making friends,
I was never better than me,
I was never everything I could be
I’m sure that someday I will move on, and make something of my life,
but that’s so far from now, and as of right now I’m too tired to try,
there’s nothing you can say to convince me,
and there’s no hope for making a change
it’s something that you don’t wanna find out,
it’s something that you don’t wanna learn,
I’m causing the lives of those around me to crash and burn,
I was never that good at making friends,
I was never better than me,
I was never everything I could be
when I was a kid I thought that somehow fate would fall into my lap,
I didn’t know I was backwards, standing up, and losing everything I had
put yourself out there or turn yourself off,
turn,
there’s nothing I can do to love myself,
and there’s no point in that anyway
it’s something that you don’t wanna find out,
it’s something that you don’t wanna learn,
I’m causing the lives of those around me to crash and burn,
I was never that good at making friends,
I was never better than me,
I was never everything I could be
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4. |
Mold
03:30
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Driving away the chance for tomorrow,
just so that maybe you won’t turn away,
kill what’s inside of us, the whole world will follow,
as long as you say we can watch you fade
And I’m not afraid
But am I lying to myself? Could I live like someone else?
or is this just a lack of mental health
Tell me again how all the stars fell down,
the world we’re living is in your hands forever,
tell me again why we are crashing down,
the world we know is slowly dying together
This is not your hand, don’t let everything mold
You start to question whether we were alive at all,
it’s not what you have but what you learn that will make you feel small,
I write down everything that hasn’t happened yet,
so I’ll still have it when I try to forget
Tell me again how all the stars fell down,
the world we’re living is in your hands forever,
tell me again why we are crashing down,
the world we know is slowly dying together
This is not your hand, don’t let everything mold
I’m not afraid
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5. |
Easy On/Easy Off
04:04
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I’ve got this sinking feeling
that my bones belong to someone else
he always speaks but he is never listened to
he gets put right back on the shelf
I don’t have other options
My senses fail me every time
Tighten this knot so it can never be untied
Never be
Then there’s some days,
I’ll feel nothing above me
Needing some things
all this heavy thinking falls gently
I’ve got this pair of mirrors
That my head is found right in between
But all my memories can be found in wounds uncleaned
We’ll just cut right to the next scene
Keep wasting all my options
I should be locked inside my room
I’ll just get over it by drowning all my fears
in this tomb
Then there’s some days,
I’ll feel nothing above me
Needing some things
all this heavy thinking falls gently
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6. |
Bond
02:56
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All you do is use her, all you do is use her up,
all she does is hang on, looks to the answers with eyes both shut,
and pretends there’s nothing wrong, that there’s nothing going on,
behind the scenes, behind her shield, her wall, her dreams
I can tell by the look on her face when you’re here,
we could tell by the cheap beer,
I can tell from the black and the blue and the red,
because you’re both fucked in the head
Out was never an option, home was never the safest place to go,
hope was never so distant, but what are we to do now that we know?
She will cling to anything, even if that thing kicks the shit out of her,
and provides the poison that will get to her if he doesn’t do it first
I can tell by the look on her face when you’re here,
we could tell by the cheap beer,
I can tell from the black and the blue and the red,
because you’re both fucked in the head,
and you know it had to be said,
I wish he were dead
It’s hard to separate two beings who live to feed off each other’s emptiness but it has got to be done somehow,
It’s an uphill battle with him at the top throwing sticks and rocks and names in case he doesn’t just want her bones to break,
There’s a light at the end of this tunnel and I’m hoping it’s not a train, I’m hoping you’re okay, I’m hoping he’s just a day away from finally succumbing to,
the same addiction that he gave to you
You won’t be satisfied until you’re pissing on her grave,
and yelling at her to crawl back up and face you,
I hope that I am god in my next life,
so I’ll be able to erase you
(the pain never goes away long after the source has bled through)
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7. |
Pendentives
03:29
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Who knows what Ira’s thinking of?
Diamond edges protect her heart from feeling love,
I held my tongue for far too long,
now Ira’s gone
now Ira’s gone away and there’s nothing I can say
to change that
Who’s wearing your hazel eyes?
Sunk into a face I cannot recognize,
he stole your sight and so much more,
I can’t close the door (it opens itself as it fades)
can’t close the door (I’m hoping this all goes away)
I’m standing in the pouring rain as they say
your boy’s insane
but I knew you better than they ever could
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8. |
Wake Forest
03:18
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Move slow, soft footsteps through the hall,
I hate to wake you,
and you’ve been listening for a sound,
to tell you what you should do
I can’t let you off this ride, I can’t get inside your mind,
your dreams are wonderful, your dreams are never-ending,
you can’t open up your eyes, you can’t imagine real life,
your dreams are so bizarre, your dreams are terrifying
Move slow, soft footsteps through the hall,
I hate to wake you,
and you’ve been listening for a sound
So this is where we go take it backwards,
I need to go and think of them,
all I need to hear is their words,
but they’re gone again
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9. |
Joy Division T-Shirt
03:16
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With the bitter wind that closes eyes, so cold,
like the words that take me by surprise, I know,
there’s a better time and place for this where I’d feel more prepared,
as it is, the winter crushes me, too scared
It’s not you (I’ll never have you)
It was me (I never knew you)
Please don’t say (I never wanted)
Anything like (this)
Why were you (I couldn’t tell you)
Gone so fast? (Even if I could)
Just forget it (What good would it do?)
Like a thunderstorm comes crashing in, you were,
like a butterfly thrown by the wind, I turned,
every moment in my life has been leading up to this,
now it’s finally happened and I think that I missed
It’s not you (I’ll never have you)
It was me (I never knew you)
Please don’t say (I never wanted)
Anything like (this)
Why were you (I couldn’t tell you)
Gone so fast? (Even if I could)
Just forget it (What good would it do?)
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10. |
Franklin Badge
03:11
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I used to be mad at you, but I got over it,
and holding grudges is more your style anyway,
at this point I just feel bad you missed out something great,
but I’m glad I know to never grow up to act the same
give it up,
I have nothing I want to say to you,
And I feel none,
of the loyalty you think I do
can’t get over it, I swear I’m not like them,
too long,
two weeks is too much, maybe just a day is,
too long
Tell me this, only to find
it was a great big lie, a great big lie,
Can’t let it out with just a sigh,
been bottled up inside for too much time,
I’ll never take another flight,
I’ve gotten far too wise, so shelf your pride
and realize that you will probably never see me again
I looked up to you, I mean I really did,
How was I supposed to see through your facade when I was just a kid,
and the biggest regret that I’ll ever have
is how long it took me to realize I was wrong, and why mom was so fucking sad
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11. |
Shade
03:20
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How did you become so lonely?
closed off, hoping no one takes a
shot at you, so down, so low, it’s true,
marriage never sounded so
perverse to you, but also so appealing
all at once, yeah you’re not done till you’re through
You’ll never love (you’ll never live)
but you will be loved,
You’ll never die (you’ll only fade)
apart from everyone,
and I wish I could do something (but you pushed me away)
Shade, I wish you could feel the same, but I know you won’t (shade, sad and so mundane)
I wish you could feel a thing, but I know you can’t,
Fake it, fake it for me and I promise I won’t care (chains, locked up in your brain)
Break it, break it off and I’ll pretend you were never there
the way that it echoes,
the way that you won’t go,
you shut all your windows,
the way that it echoes
Shade, I wish you could feel the same, but I know you won’t (shade, sad and so mundane)
I wish you could feel a thing, but I know you can’t,
Fake it, fake it for me and I promise I won’t care (chains, locked up in your brain)
Break it, break it off and I’ll pretend you were never there
I’ll follow you anywhere
(fate, leave it for now, take it for granted, let it go)
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12. |
EOE
03:41
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Why am I so afraid?
The chances that I make,
I'm always awake
I'm picking up all the pieces,
Can I just explain?
Can't you see I've changed?
Staying up so fucking late,
Thinking about the days,
I was just okay.
I'll pick it up, one by one
All that's in my brain,
Will never make me sane
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